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Jan. 2nd, 2005 @ 05:01 pm JOURNAL HAS MOVED
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Distillers - Fate at Fourteen
I guess you guys have been wondering why I haven't been updating....well, my journal moved a month ago, but in order to know that you had to click on my lj-cut tag and actually read my entry. I did this for a reason - to only give out the new journal to people who actually read care instead of just read and comment in order to get a comment on their own journal.

Anyway, I miss you guys....Luna ms. kutcher all of you....add this... bleed_black88

I hope to talk to you all soon,
xoxox
Tiffany

http://www.livejournal.com/users/bleed_black88
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Nov. 12th, 2004 @ 07:06 pm do you see my hands? they tremble..
Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Brand New - Deja Entendu (album)
and you wonder why I can't look you in the eye... )
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Nov. 4th, 2004 @ 04:35 pm LOL
Current Mood: ditzy
Current Music: Nekromantix - Motorpsycho
Damn, I just cant get enough of Nader!! hahaha...

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Nov. 3rd, 2004 @ 03:37 pm omg I can't believe he lost. :(
Current Mood: angry
Current Music: A.F.I. - Bleed Black
20 reasons why you should've voted for Ralph Nader on November 2
NADER!!!! )
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Oct. 24th, 2004 @ 07:51 pm homecoming with Timmay.
Current Mood: loved
Current Music: Chronic Future
homecoming pictures )
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Sep. 10th, 2004 @ 03:31 pm Hi!
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Rancid - Radio Havana
Hi! My name is Tiffany. And guess what? I suck. Everything I do is never enough for anyone, and I'll never get the respect that I deserve. Nothing that I say or do is taken seriously, and people just assume I'm a failure at everything.
But one day I'll show them...

I just want to get out of Stafford.....
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Aug. 31st, 2004 @ 11:50 pm Christine
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Late Night TV
Finally, livejournal has become something that ujournal used to be.

A place for total strangers to comment on others lives, offering advice, or just to say some witty one liners in hopes of cheering up the other's state.

After a while of commenting, you can almost predict what's going to happen next in your livejournal friend's next entry thanks to the eventful entries of the past.

It is my opinion, that you actually know the person better than their own friends in real life do. That's solely based upon the fact that there's nothing to hide. It's a journal. It's you. You don't have to care about people's reactions, you don't have to worry if they'll talk about you behind your back.

I've seen bad entries about friends, heck, I've even written some about my own friends at high school in this journal.
I've seen heartache, I've seen feuds, I've seen IM conversations, and many times I've witnessed just how much a simple hug means.

The thing I'm getting to, is that you actually start to care about your friends on here. Take my friend Christine as an example.
Like my other livejournal friend Amber, Christine lives in Florida.
Most of us are aware that Hurricane Frances is moving straight toward Florida. According to Christine's journal, 85% of Florida will be affected. What scares me the most is that she is located EXACTLY in the projected track. She blogged that her family plans to evacuate, which is good, for their safety. But what she must deal with is the constant worrying with things like,
Is my boyfriend okay?
Is my house still in tact?
What will be left of my town?
And the thing is, she won't know any of the answers until the nightmare's all over.

This hasn't been the first time that I've read fear of uncertainty of mother nature.
A few weeks ago Amber was afraid of a different hurricane which was headed for her. I remember telling her that it would be okay - and trying to be calm so she would be - when inside I was panicking like a monkey without oxygen.

I want you all to envision in your mind that you're packing. Packing - everything you NEED and not what you want - because you know that you have to leave your home in order to be safe. Now imagine leaving your homes. Leaving it knowing that you would never be coming home to the same every-day-feeling that you take for granted again. Just the memories of the past is all you'll have. Your family's in the car. They're waiting for you. In your mind, you've already accepted the fact that it's the last time you'll be in your home. You just want to take in the feeling of safety for a few more moments...
In the car, your mother tries to calm you down...even though you love her, you're not in the mood to talk. All you do is stare out the window at the familiar scenery that you've grown up around.
As time passes, it's as if the car radio is your new best friend. You haven't turned it off since this journey has begun. You aren't control of your fear, the hurricane sucked it all up inside like a child mindlessly sucking on a milkshake straw.
You think you're alone, and wonder why this happened to you.
The thing is, you're not alone .. and that thousands of other people have to endure what you're going through.
Christine, you're not alone. You'll make it through, and so will your loved ones. I know this because I know you, I know you're strong. Emotionally, you've dealt with your own hurricanes, and I know you'll have enough strength and knowledge to contend and cope with this one.

Christine, you, your family, and everyone in Florida, are in my prayers.
I love you, <3
Tiffany
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Aug. 30th, 2004 @ 10:55 pm he
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Led Zepplin - Black Dog
he. he sits in silence.
a sudden riot penetrating through his mind.
wait. waiting for the silence
to break away from self control....

ARE YOU LOCKED UP IN A WORLD THATS BEEN PLANNED OUT FOR YOU
ARE YOU FEELING LIKE A SOCIAL TOOL WITHOUT A USE
SCREAM AT ME
UNTIL MY EARS BLEED
IM TAKING HEED JUST FOR YOU


he doesnt like me he never did i was STUPID for telling him how I felt.
Never again am I taking any more chances.

STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID.

I'm sorry.
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Aug. 27th, 2004 @ 11:01 am NO.
Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: Green Day - Warning
Never again am I going to say what bands I am in to. NEVER. AGAIN.

Or, anything else, I.E. websites...you know.

I feel a friends only entry coming on...
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Aug. 27th, 2004 @ 12:50 am today
Current Mood: cold
Current Music: Coheed and Cambria - Wishful Thinking
bye bye beautiful.

okay....today i....went to the eye doctor, went to guitar center, pac sun, hot topic, um..ryan's, cvs, and then back to the mall.

Good news is - I'm better at driving. About time.

I have no inspiration to write in this journal anymore. Eh, or maybe its just cause it's 1 am.
beelah...

Oh, everyone got schedules today, and yeah I'm depressed because everyone (including Derick) heck, heres the list -
EVERYONE OF MY FRIENDS THAT HAVE 4TH LUNCH
Derick <3
Nuuge
Logan
Clay
Jeff
Liz
Abby
Amanda
Danika
Caitlyn
Justin
Nicole
and Sarah</b>
-dies-
Whos in my lunch?!
Timmay, and Brett.
Oh yeah, this school years going to rock!!!!!

It's so sad, really it is. I don't have that many friends at forge to begin with. Just grr.
Oh well, last year I thought I was going to collapse on the floor each time I walked into Forge, so maybe my opinion will change.
What am I saying? I have gym.

This is going to be a really bad school year.
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Aug. 25th, 2004 @ 09:36 am Broken
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Rancid - Tropical London
And I don't want the world to see me cause I don't think they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.


Justin said I'm dedicated for writing songs.
I say I'm emo.

Too friggen emo lately. Even Ifind myself wanting to kill the emo kid.

Here comes that depressive state that I get in every 2 weeks. But only now I have reasons to feel down.
Has anyone noticed that a lot of my entries aren't public anymore?
Does she have something to hide?
Yes, she does.
Too many things..
I can't take living like this, but I'm going to anyway.
You can't hide the tears that aren't coming.

Being depressed sucks.

*sigh* I'll presume unanncounced. Carry on.
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Aug. 23rd, 2004 @ 04:12 pm do what i want
Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: Nekromantix - Breath
cause I wanna.
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Aug. 22nd, 2004 @ 01:38 pm ye-ah.
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Usher - Burn
Brody still hates me. It's all good though. I think.

Work was the usual. So was driving...

Today is just.....beelah.

Goolay!
pUnX,
Tiffany
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Aug. 21st, 2004 @ 08:45 pm Brody
Current Mood: grateful
Current Music: Dashboard Confessional - Vindicated
Trip to Petco an hour ago.
I walked in, saw the ferrets, got an hydrinalin (sp) rush, ran over to them, tapped on the glass.
Hello wittle ferret...you're just as cute as you could be! yes you are....yes oh yes you are!! <3!!!
The ferret sniffs the glass where I was tapping, turns around, then craps right in my face.
I then backed away slowly, then quickly glance around to make sure no one saw that.
Meh.

I then go over to the hamsters.
Aww...I want this one....no that one...awww...look at it's paws!!! awww....
But I know what I came for.
A solid color long haired female hamster, *sigh*.
And knowing fate, there was only one there.
I looked in the little plastic "hamster igloo" where the sign said she resided.
Then there she was, I fell in love.

She's so cute you guys. She's orange with a white star under her neck. She's also HUGE. Like, I think she might be pregnant. lol. Which would totally rock. I'd name them all after members of the distillers.
Which, by the way, is how she got the name Brody (lead singer of the distillers)

At checkout, I started to laugh because her claws were visible (she was trying to get out of the cardboard box. Who wouldn't!?)
In the car, she kept crawling around and I was really surprised because Kurt Cobain just like, sat there. Meh.
She litterly ate a corner of a box, leaving this big gap in one corner big enough for her to escape out of.
She's vicious.

But yeah, she's in her cage right now...everytime I try and pick her up she squeels like I don't know what...Kurt Cobain never did that so it makes me wonder. She's so fat dude, she got stuck in her little wooden cheese thing.
I hope she's pregnant. Dude dude dude that would be so cool.

I LOVE BRODY!!!!!!!
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Aug. 21st, 2004 @ 04:33 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: AC/DC - Back In Black
Justin commented Justin commented Justin commented woot woot woot!!!!

http://www.livejournal.com/users/xxdistillerxx/7889.html
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Aug. 20th, 2004 @ 08:17 pm beelah.
Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: The Distillers - World Comes Tumblin' Down
Derick and Nuuge were both being utterly mean today.
Maybe I get pissed off too easily, but god damn. Derick didn't even say sorry. Grr.
Katie said he called her and was like all on the verge of crying and crap, I didn't believe her.
Psh.

But in other news,
I was talking to Timmay for 3 hours today!!!! Well, I was on the phone for 3 hours, we talked for 1! haha

Dont have much time, I'll update more later.
PUNX,
Tiffany
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Aug. 19th, 2004 @ 07:08 pm eh
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Billy Talent - Line and Sinker
My. Back. Hurts.


*Sigh* in other news...

I drove on Rt. 17 today...back home.

I was nagging mom on whether or not I could have a hamster.
Dad said he would take me to Petco tonight.
Mom said, "No! You killed the last one.." (referring to Kurt Cobain)
So I put on a sad face, and pretended like I was in Passions.
"But Mooooom...I'm allergic to Garfield. I want a pet. This paper says I can either get a hamster, gerbil, or a horse."
"Get a horse"
"Say what???? You wont let me get a furry creature that's about the size of 3 quarters, but you'll let me get something that could basically kill me in an instant?!" (based on my experiances with Cornjulio and Boxer at Katie's)
"Tiffany you can get a horse...we'll put it out front." (we have 2 acres in front of our house..)
But I don't know. I mean, Mom said I could take lessons and everything, which means that I'd be going over to Andrew's every week which would be fun. And I do need something to take lessons with since I quit Guitar Lessons last month..but I don't really know if I NEED a horse. Sure, I want one. But I don't NEED it.
What I do need is a hamster. :P
All I know is, whatever the heck I get, I'm naming it Butthead. And if I get anothe of its kind, Ima name it Beavis.

Good day!
Tiffany
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Aug. 19th, 2004 @ 02:10 pm wake up
Current Mood: hyper
Current Music: The Exposition - Pharisee
I woke up in a bad mood. I intentually was late to the doctors this morning...so friggen scared of the doctors.
Needles dude....in my back....
Needles usually don't bother me, but I don't like the idea of anything sharp going in my back without me seeing what the heck it is.

But anyway, the doctor, like most doctors, cracked a joke that I laughed at because I felt bad for him.
So here's what I'm allergic to -
Johnson Grass
Hickory Tree
Ragweed
Cats
Dogs

I almost cried when I saw I was allergic to cats.
Not really, but it made me sad.

Anywho, the whole diagnoses doesn't change the fact that I love Garfield. I'm still going to spend lots of time with my beautiful half persian kittie. <3! I love him.
I hate my dog though.

I'm not allergic to hamsters!!! lol...I had a good laugh when I saw that ppl could be allergic to them...and gerbils too!! lol. But then again, I was in the doctors office waiting to get some attention, I was starving for entertainment.

My mom pulled over on 17 today, and was like, "Here Tiffany, I'm going to let you drive now.."
I'm like, woah!!! I can't do that! Not on 17!
"But you drove on the highway US 1.."
That's different! There's too many cars!! And crazy people! And pedestrians..and...and...traffic lights!!
"Aw..my poor little Tiffany is scared of driving.."
Give me the wheel.

So I drove on Kellogg Mill...
So much exciting scenery, I tell you!

When my mom gets back from shopping she said she'd take me to CVS to get some eyeliner...I might see Justin I dunno.
So yeah I'm probably going to drive to CVS. Eek.

Nuge IMed me last night and was all like,
this is Jay...your stalker...
lol it really freaked ME out. So of course I IMed Katie and was like, "wtf is wrong with Nuge?"
"I dunno let me IM him"
so she talked to him and he was sayin that he was Jay...and he was playin this game with me or w/e..
But when "Jay" got offline, Katie and I totally got revenge. LMAO! Don't mess with us!
PUNX
Tiffany
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Aug. 18th, 2004 @ 07:28 pm well...
Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: The Exposition - Pharisee
I have to get up early tomorrow for a friggen doctors appointment.
Mom said the dude is going to put needles in my back to see what I'm illergic to. I told her that I wouldn't allow it.
But I'm not 18. My decision doesnt matter.

Jacco gave me his band's site...sent me this song "pharisee" which he wrote for Sarah...lucky girl..
But dude Jacco is really awesome at guitar..
I was like, "woah!" when I heard him play in his band, The Exposition.
Hats off to Jacco. Here's his band's site -
http://www.exposition.tk/

Well you knew it was coming Jacco, can I please have the guitar tablature?! <3!!!!!

I was nervous about the doctors tomorrow but man this song just makes me forget about everything.
What's my name again?
Ah, now I remember.

THE EXPOSITION FRIGGEN ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Aug. 18th, 2004 @ 09:22 am haha...
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: US Bombs - Roll Around
TTame
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FFlamboyant
FFun
AAmazing
NNeglected
YYum

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